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Re: i hate the t.
From: allthepuddles@yahoo.com (Puddles)
Emerging Butterfly wrote:
On Jul 14, 5:23 pm, astri <as...@invalid.invalid> wrote:
On Tue, 14 Jul 2009, Emerging Butterfly wrote:
i hate her right now. i think she's stupid and has no idea what she's
doing or talking about. i hate her.
why? what she do or say?
-- astri
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spoilered for bdsm talk, s*x talk. ab*se talk.
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she said the ab*se i went through was about secrecy and that i'm
continuing that secrecy by not being explicit with her about what my
behaviors with the bdsm thing are. i talked about being less coaware
than i thought, and she immediately said maybe an alter had had loving
relations with steven and i didn't know about it. i don't think so.
got bad abreaction thing about dad and secrets and him too close to me
and secrets and i can't say what else. talked a little about it.
an alter wrote what we plan to do with this guy later this
week....well, wrote most of it. she read it and said stuff and asked
questions. we had switched by the time she was done reading it into
someone not ashamed and more confident. but she said m#sturb&tion is
good and healthy, no matter the fantasies, that that would be maybe a
way for me to get "satisfaction" -- she said nothing to be ashamed of
and "you're ashamed of stuff even by your own hand" -- gross gross
gross ick ick ick. why she talking about that??
and she said everyone has different loving fantasies and even in
sitcoms there's often rope or something in the bedroom and that's not
that unusual.
said don't have to live asexual life, that that isn't healthy.
but then said also that i'm retraumatizing someone inside by playing
if someone feels awful about it. said that is abusive to that alter
but the core me the strong me is not abusive.
said a lot of things that seemed utterly contradictory and talked
about gross stuff and
i left with angry kid
and came home
and all i wanted to do was find someone to h*rt me
and i don't want to go back to her for awhile.
she hurt me.
can you email this to her? sounds like she hit a sore spot with you. some of you were hurt, some of you were needing to discuss this and some of you were not ok with the one who was disclosing.
i try to tell t when others of me are not ok with the conversation. now he will usually ask if there is somewhere i can put them so that they don't hear.
but sounds like some of you who should not have heard did hear, and think t is maybe right, that is being abuse to some of you.
think most all ppl with sa cant be 'satisfied' with other ppl and can only
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